I have moments when I get super sad I can't run. Like the other morning. For some reason, I noticed the strap that goes on my handheld water bottle even though it has been sitting in the same (clearly visible) spot since I had to stop running. Just seeing it overwhelmed me with sadness.
And I have days when the positive thoughts just can't win out over the frustration, sadness, anger and discouragement I feel. Yesterday was one of those days.
I made the mistake of getting on social media in the morning. Something I saw triggered my frustration, and it just built from there.
I am frustrated that I have cut my calories quite a bit but feel like my legs they are bigger (and not in a good way from all the weight training).
I get discouraged when strength training doesn't leave me feeling exhausted in the way a good run does. In fact, I actually get a little too excited during each workout when I finally break a sweat. Which is just sad.
I am discouraged because I feel like I will never lose the weight around my midsection that causes me so much frustration. And not being able to do any kind of cardio isn't helping my efforts. So all those who say strength training is the magic key and that you don't even need cardio can just...well just stop saying that. It isn't true.
I am angry that I got injured. I am angry at myself and sometimes even angry at other runners (insert ashamed face emoji here).
I am frustrated because wearing this boot is making other parts of my foot hurt so I feel like it's doing good in some ways but also setting me up for other problems.
So there you have it. Being injured is hard. Staying positive is hard. But like everything else, all I can do is take things one day at a time and TRY. TRY. TRY. to stay positive.