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Falling in Love Again

You may have noticed I recently took a break. I came home from Arizona and spent several days feeling utterly overwhelmed by life. When I looked at my life, I felt like I was failing in every way possible - as a mom, professionally, in my running, in managing my home, blogging, you name it. After a few days wallowing in hopelessness, I decided to make some changes. I set some personal goals, typed them up and posted them next to my bed. Then I decided I needed to change the way I think. I will never feel totally successful at the end of the day unless I stop beating myself up about everything. Like missing a run, or getting behind on the laundry, or getting impatient with my daughter when she won't clean her room, or not commenting on every blog I read. I spent time prioritizing my life and reminding myself what is really important.

I also realized too many things in my life are things I feel I need to do or should do rather than want to do. Running has become one of those things. I have been logging the miles because my training plan says I should, but I haven't looked forward to running for a while now. I want to fall back in love with running. So with nine weeks until the St. George marathon, I took my training plan down and decided it is time to run just to run.


  1. Good for you! I hope you're getting past your "blahs" and feeling good about running again (and everything else, too). I hate it when I get in a funk like that.

  2. Sounds like taking down the training plan is exactly what you need right now.

  3. I have been feeling like this too! I decided that I was trying to do soooooo many things and wanted to accomplish so much all at the same time I was making it impossible to get any of it right...haha funny enough I'm trying to write a post about it but too busy :)

    hope you'll join in the PR challenge, should be a good motivator for the fall

  4. OMG, you have managed to put into words what I have been feeling for the past month now. Thank you. Maybe I need to sit down, prioritize, and write some goals!

    Hang in there girl!

  5. We do have too many responsibilities and not enough hours in the day.

    Enjoy your family time and life with two little girls, you're very lucky.

    My daughter's room is probably a daily disaster. But, I like looking at how the toys, stuff animals, and books have traveled around and tell the story of her day. Can't tell you how many times, her room is full of books stacked like birdhouses and cages for her stuff animals. Love it.

  6. I think at some point or another, especially during the peak of training, we start to feel overwhelmed and loose track of the important things, like why we started to begin with. Because we love running. We started our blogs because of it and once upon a time we never even had a reader but we kept on posting... Don't stress it, your readers will always forgive you and if given a chance the joy of running will always come back.

  7. Good for you! I've been feeling like this and pretty much did the same thing with running. No rules, do what I want, when I want!

  8. Thank you for your's so easy to forget our passions in the things we feel like we have to do. Way to re-prioritize.

  9. Thank you. Your post is exactly what I needed to hear right now. You may not always know it, but your blog serves as an inspiration to other runners like myself.

  10. Wow! Way to turn yourself around. Great post and great plan. Oh, and know that you're not alone - we all feel that way at some time.

    Winks & Smiles,

  11. Good for you!!! That is how I felt last year (the running because I had to and not because I wanted to or just for the joy of running). Good luck finding your love of running again!!!

  12. Thank you for your post. I feel the same way. Happy fun run!


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